faz-in-a-box's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - - ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Meeting the Ex its been a busy week due to exams and at current count, i've done 4 and have 2 more to go. i cannot wait for this week to be over!! i'm just soooo sick of studying and exams and all that other academic stuff that i've spent my last 23 years doing. this should be my last set of exams ever after which i should FINALLY qualify as a lawyer. bloody hell, that took long :-p the only interesting news was that on friday, i really wanted A to meet The Boyfriend because she is one of my oldest and closest friends. she'd been skeptical of him since i started seeing him but i wanted her to see that he really was lovely and sure enough, she too was won over. the quote of the night had to be when i told her that all my other friends who'd met him had loved him and she said "you can add me to that list too." :) its honestly such a relief when your friends approve... i mean, fair enough they're not the ones in the relationship but i do feel that they do know you better than you think sometimes and when your head is filled with the fuzzy feelings, its nice to get someone one the outside to give an unbiased view of the situation. so that went really well :) in addition to meeting A tho, The Boyfriend also got to meet RS. yea. hands up who thought that was awkward? RS was feeling down that day so A and i decided to go over and cheer him up and get him to come out, hoping he'd feel better if he came out of the house for awhile. it was strange being back at his house again after all this time and even his mom was commenting how i hadn't been over in awhile. i made an excuse about being busy with work. anyways, we managed to convince him to come out afterall and A suggested calling the Boyfriend too since she was leaving for a few weeks and wouldn't be back till mid Jan. So call him i did. i was so nervous and when i warned The Boyfriend that RS would be there, he almost didn't come. and who could blame him? i'm certainly not too keen on meeting his ex either. But like the sweetheart that he is, The Boyfriend came anyways and was all cool and lovable and i think it actually went down pretty well. No, i have not told RS yet. And when The Boyfriend was there he sat a friendly distance away and didn't make it obvious that we were dating which really made things easier to bear and less awkward. on the whole, things went off without a hitch. 10:28 p.m. - December 03, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Queen of Procrastination in classic faz-stylee... its a day before one of the most important exams of my life and i'm sitting here, reviving my blog. well, ok, not so much reviving, just coming back after a two-month hiatus. i'm not going to apologise and make excuses anymore, but neither am i going to close the blog anymore whenever i get bored with it. this has always been my little outlet on the world and i'm just going to leave it here, whether i'm blogging or not. anyways, yes, as mentioned, exams are in two days. i'm not being funny when i say i'm not really prepared. i'm not. i hope i pass. thats about all i can say. in other news, the Referral Guy has since become The Boyfriend. yea, if you ask me... i'm not quite sure how that happened either. it occured two weeks ago today and things have been fine so far. i guess after a month and a half of seeing each other, we sort of figured we should give this a name and decided to officialise the fact that we were seeing each other. the truth however, is that i still have unresolved feelings for RS although i've been working hard to get over those. to his credit, The Boyfriend has been pretty awesome about this fact, and has never pushed me or our relationship to a higher level because i think on some level, he still has unresolved issues with his ex. perhaps we're both just rebounding off each other but its nice to have someone there, especially when there's a gap you're trying to fill. he is a sweetheart in his own way and i don't think i've felt as comfortable in my own skin around someone i'm dating than i have with him. RS and i do still talk every so often but its stunted, superficial conversation. we seem to be trying to get back to some degree of normalcy in our friendship but i guess we'll just see how things pan out. righto! back to work!! 12:47 a.m. - November 25, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Just shut up and drive I passed my driving test!!!!!!! Final-fucking-ly!!!! 12:05 a.m. - October 03, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- First Date So I had my first date with the Referral Guy last night and it actually went down better than I had hoped. But let me rewind a little. Last I recall, I was ranting about how he was just a wee too enthusiastic with the frequent text messages. But whatever. On Monday I skipped my lectures so that I could work on my evening tutorial and checked myself into a Coffee Bean with an ice-blended mocha to buckle down. Got a text from the Referral Guy asking what I was up to coz he was bored so I told him I was having coffee and he was welcome to join me. And join me he did! I hadn't really expected him to take up my offer and I certainly hadn't been prepared to meet him that day so I was in my scruffy school clothes, lol! He showed up in his office clothes and shook my hand then sat down. It was the first time we met and it actually went really smoothly. We just chatted and joked around. It was really chilled out and he reminded me a lot of my guy friends. Anyways, after about an hour, I had to get to class and he had to get back to work so we parted ways. Seeing as our spontaneous coffee meeting had gone well, I wasn't all that nervous about the Official First Date which was scheduled for Tuesday. He picked me up at 8 as we'd planned and took me to Jalan Kayu for some killer nasi goreng (fried rice). After that we bought a couple of milos from 7-eleven and went to Seletar Dam to watch the cars. He was such a gentleman and didn't try anything dodgy and had me cracking up the whole time! I think what I loved most was that it didn't feel like a date so much that things felt awkward but more like I was just out chilling with a friend. He had me home by 10.30 with the promise that he'll speak to me on MSN later. In all, I had a really good time. It was so nice not to have any expectations of each other, or expect that anything would happen later. The guy was great company and a good conversationalist, qualities that I've always valued. And best of all, he makes me laugh :) 2:20 p.m. - September 26, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Grindhouse I went to see a movie by myself tonight. In fact, it was a two movie marathon and let me tell you, it takes courage to go to a movie by yourself on a Saturday night. Its not like I don’t have friends, its just that none of them were into Quentin Tarantino enough to see Grindhouse with me. And with free flow drinks and popcorn, how could I have given it a miss?? So I went. On my own. The movies themselves were not bad, though I liked Deathproof more than Planet Terror. I think the suspension of belief just got suspended a wee too far for me to handle and it just became a silly romp of a film where they tried to kill a bunch of zombies. Still, I had a good time, on my own. It was a good experience having to do it on my own, kinda felt like I could do anything on my own. 2:21 a.m. - September 23, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The Rebound Guy They say that the best way to get one man out of your head is to get another into your bed. We all know how well that didn’t work for me the last time so perhaps it might be worth getting another guy in my head instead. My cousin decided to hook me up with a friend of hers and so far he seems alright. Not really my type but who knows. Except that I’m getting a little worried about his level of enthusiam… he’s asked me out which is all fine and we talk on msn. But then he also texts me all the time! And yesterday we had a webcam chat and he would not stop about how great I looked. And honestly, I’m really not all that. He’s gonna build up way too much hope at this rate and fall crashing down. And if not that, then I’m scared its going to turn into another boy drama which is the last thing I want right now. I hope I’m not getting in over my head… 10:23 a.m. - September 22, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- When Girl Friends become Girlfriends I’m trying hard not to be irritated right now that a friend has just texted to cancel our dinner plans for tonight. I’d just decided what I was going to wear and had started getting ready when she cancelled; the reason being, the guy she’s interested in just offered to cook her dinner and I guess in the toss up of ‘great girly conversation’ vs ‘potential night of hot sex’, she chose the latter. I know I can’t really blame her, having been guilty of reshuffling my plans for the same reason before. Its almost like karma coming back to bite me in the ass for all the times I’ve rescheduled a girlfriend to do something with the dude instead. The thing is, I hate it when it’s done to me yet I did it to others… the difference being I’d never tell them there was a dude involved. Usually I’d say something has come up and be very vague, or blame my parents and say that I couldn’t make it on account of them. I know lying doesn’t make me any better but at least said girlfriend wasn’t left feeling jilted and rescheduling wasn’t too hard. I know I probably would have done the same thing if I had been in her shoes. But that certainly doesn’t make me feel any better. And it certainly isn’t going to stop me from rejecting her calls to reschedule before she leaves on Friday. 7:28 p.m. - September 19, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Just an update so i ran away to KL for the weekend, just to get away from it all. The trip was entirely too short but i came back relaxed and recharged. No Pants and Reg came back with me so I spent a couple of days showing ithem around. But it was nice to see them again (along with Wanni) after such a long time. Its hard to imagine how long its been since we last saw each other but it was great catching up. In other news, the dude called me today. After a month of not talking to him, he called. He was sad and it made my heart ache to hear him like that but I just know its a dangerous slope that I will so easily fall down on if I let myself go. But we’re talking again and thats more than I could have hoped for. 3:47 p.m. - September 13, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Boo was supposed to have a poker do at my house today but no one showed. People suck. Feels like that time when I was twelve and had a party at my house and no one showed up except for my one friend. Felt like such a loser. 4:47 p.m. - September 6, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Model Behaviour I went out with FCR last night and a few of her other model friends and we hit Fashion Bar. I’d never really been there before seeing as the drinks are exhorbitant but on wednesday nights, models get free drinks so there I was. Not that I’m a model by any stretch (tho I did get the odd cheesy pick up line like “Didn’t I see you in an ad somewhere?”), I was just there to soak up the ambiance. I swear, it was like entering an alternate dimension. A dimension where food was the devil and everyone was inordinately skinny and tall and just blessed with good bone structure. But becuase God is kind like that, most were also pretty much brainless. I found myself wandering outside to where my lawyer friends had secured a table a safe distance away from the Model Creatures just for a chance to breathe and some intellectual stimulation. But the experience was an interesting, tho not one I’m likely to indulge in again any time soon. I know I’m not half bad looking myself but standing next to some of these girls and guys as the strutted around the bar would have made anyone feel self conscious. Thank goodness the alcohol was worth it :D 3:19 a.m. - September 6, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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